Listen – I don’t think many people grow up with the idea of, “When I grow up I want to talk to Dead People for a living.” I promise you, I wasn’t one of those people. I had big dreams of Taylor Swift Stardom, I loved Horses and Music, and I was convinced I was going to wind up doing one of those two things. Sure, there were times I thought otherwise. Like the one time in 7th grade, I was OBSESSED with 7th Heaven, (<– Double 7’s!) and I told my mom I wanted to be a Minister when I grew up. Then, there was one time I thought about being a doctor, but then I realized I do not have the grades or the guts for that. So, really, I had two options – Become a super successful singer/songwriter or train horses.
But Spirit was constantly knocking. I remember having to check all the stalls at least 3 times because I kept seeing horses and I thought that some had gotten out. I was a walking paranoia, and I guess I was a some what functioning one. I know it sounds crazy, but I think of it like I was a functioning addict – it’s no life to live, but it’s do able until its not. Then you either have to make a change, or be 1000000% miserable. Spirit showed me how they died all the time. I remember just being at breaking point when my friendgot me the Theresa tickets. I was looking for a new job, begging the universe for a sign, because I didn’t know what I wanted to do in my life. And everything seemed to not work out that I’d been longing for before.
When the whole thing with Theresa happened, let’s just call it ‘shock’. I was much too focused on the disbelief because something I had thought might-maybe-sortof-ifibelieve it was there. I guess you could call me stubborn, or exceptionally aloof. I didn’t want to step up and take that role. I didn’t want to have the conversation with my parents. I was actually so surprised at after the show tapas, he was pushing and helping me look at what it really was. I had fears of being my true self, I had fears of calling myself a Medium.
To me, being a medium would bring ectoplasm from my mouth, my head would spin, I’d no longer be a child of God, my parents would hate me, there’d be dead people all around me and I’d never shut it off, I’d be shunned from the community and burned at the stake – Ironic, considering I adored Theresa, but thought the worst of doing it myself. I was also scared that once I said Yes to Spirit, my life would be a paranormal activity movie, and I didn’t want to get myself into any of that. Honestly though, it was all just fear. It WASN’T fear of those particular things, truthfully, because I knew in my heart that that wouldn’t happen, and wasn’t true. It was fear that I wasn’t good enough to accept the role, and heal people. That I didn’t deserve to talk to Spirit and communicate for them.
Being a Medium, and allowing myself to truly accept and appreciate my abilities was the best thing I could have EVER done not just for me, but for the people that needed my help. I am SO grateful to channel for people, and to be able to talk to their loved ones. So Far – My head is screwed on just fine, haven’t seen anything come from my mouth to the sky, Jesus and I are tighter than ever, my parents still love me, my community has accepted my work (and the ones that don’t stay out of my path), and there ARE dead people all around me all the time – but I love them, and I have boundaries. I have been able to use my abilities to help heal people, and for that I am so so SO grateful. — P.S. My life isn’t a paranormal activity movie, it’s more like a Homeboy kicks those people out and I sleep movie 😉
So if your scared to embrace your Spirit Loved ones, or scared to embrace your own gifts – Just remember if your intention is good, they will only be of loving light. It’s the most amazing thing.
If you are an intuitive healer – this is my role call to you. We could use as many healers in the world. Look at us. We really need each other, especially now. Don’t be afraid, I’m also here to help you.
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