Disclaimer: This is NOT to single out any religion, belief or God. These are my personal opinions, and my life experience. There is no right or wrong.
For the longest time I never wanted to associate Jesus with Mediumship. I have struggled with this for a while now. I think it stems from the fact that because of the organized belief system, the things that I was feeling & experiencing were considered “Bad”. I was told I shouldn’t be talking to the people I was seeing, and they shouldn’t be talking to me. I am now at a place where I am tired of holding on to this fear. I do not want to hide my belief in God or Jesus. I am on a quest for transparency, and this is a huge part of my life.
Let me give you some background. My momma is the most beautiful woman you’ll ever meet. She is the definition of unconditional love. Sure, she has her struggles — but we all do. My mom’s faith is unlike any person I have ever met. She has been active in the church since I was little, and she still takes Bible study to this day. Like my mom, when I was growing up I was so excited about Church (I should say when I was little, because as a feisty teen – sleep took the reigns for me!).
I wanted to know EVERYTHING about religion. My mom sent me to Catholic school starting in 6th grade, and like I remember telling y’all before, I spent every day at lunch with my favorite Priest. We talked about everything. I still put him in my gratitude prayers, because through him, I learned a LOT. By 7th grade, I was set on becoming a minister. Sure, I loved to sing, but being a minister seemed so exciting to me. The thought of helping people and spreading the word of God, I mean, come on! Who wouldn’t want to do that.
I continued to lead every chapel, and be the head of each chapel club/chorus until I was 16. We all know what happened to me then. (If you don’t to sum it up – not so great path, but it did lead me to here).
But there is one very important truth, one truth that still lives with me today. Faith conquers fear. Without faith in God, I truly would have nothing right now.
I mean, in all truth, I could totally go be a musician in Nashville. That was my dream. Or I could train horses, work on a farm, be a full time Zumba Teacher, I mean the possibilities for me were endless. But doing what I’m doing now was the biggest leap of faith of them all. Once I discovered that what I was sensing, hearing, and feeling meant something, and could actually help people, I couldn’t say no to His plan & purpose for me. There were times in the beginning when I was so scared I actually prayed to God & Jesus, “If you don’t want me to do this, hold my tongue. I don’t want to do this if you don’t want me to. Have me stumble, and not know the information. Take away my feelings and my dreams if it is not Your plan.”
It didn’t help either that the majority of criticism that I was getting from my friends, family, or even the hate mail from strangers – stemmed from the fact that “God would hate what I do, and it is evil”.
But after every reading flowed, my dreams got stronger and the information coming through continued to be accurate… I surrendered, and started to shift from fear to trust.
Mediumship CONFIRMED my faith, and connected me on a level I cannot humanly comprehend. But I do know when times get tough, or my fears get in the way, I can turn to Him. I believe in Jesus and I know him well. I know that he is non-judgmental, loving, guiding, caring, sweet natured, and strong. He brings me through the things that I cannot do on my own. And without Him, I wouldn’t be able to do any of this.
And I’m seeing everything come full circle. Music is illuminating the path, and setting my soul on fire in combination with Spirit. It’s so amazing to see how everything unfolds.
This is my opinion and my experience, and I don’t think there is a right or wrong way to have faith. The God I believe in does not judge, anyone or anything. He is LOVE. Pure, unconditional LOVE. And the loved ones that I communicate with are one with God.
And I’m not going to lie, I’m nervous about posting this. I’m nervous because any association with these 2 things has often created hate, not love… But my hope is that you see that we all have something that God created us for, to live differently and uniquely, and change the world by BEING OURSELVES… Dear God, what a wonderful world this would be!