As Brene Brown would say, “I have a vulnerability hangover”. I am OVERWHELMED by everyones love and support that I got from posting my truth yesterday. Thank you so much to all those who took the time to comment, like, text, and call. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I decided it was time to stop hiding who I was, I just decided to stop living in fear.
When I first starting accepting myself & spirit, I realized that the reason I was seeing so much death was because that is how spirit was communicating with me; they would show me how they died. True statement. So literally, anywhere I went I was surrounded by death. I’d see car accidents everywhere I drove, people flying through wind shields – No wonder I thought I was crazy! One of the best things I had to remember was that I was in control. I’ll tell you, that is NOT what it felt like. I lived people’s death. I have been shot, stabbed, hung, had a heart attack, I mean, you name it, I experienced it. One of the first vivid times I really can account to feeling it physically was while I was sitting next to a woman. Good start to a story right? Well all the sudden, I felt my knees go weak and my neck pop. I felt lightheaded and suffocated. I don’t think I need to go much further into the fact that I was experiencing being hung. Looking back at all the times something like that happened, I realize what a true blessing it was. Because throughout all that fear I experienced, I found UNDENIABLE evidence that Spirit knows what they’re doing! I wouldn’t have noticed if I simply saw a pair of boots, or a rose pedal, or a random flower sofa float across my minds eye. I wouldn’t have given that a second thought.. But I surely notice being suffocated. The beauty in all this, is spirit spoke directly to me in a way they knew I would wake up. Now, I learned that that is NOT how it was supposed to go from there on out. I started to open, explore and say, Ok I understand you passed in a hanging, I do not need to see and feel it. Let’s talk about your name. Now my guide knows that I do not need to see the negative, and I can give bountiful evidence (all spirits doing) just by communicating effectively and clearing my intention. I think anyone can see messages from their loved ones if they pay attention to the simple things they think (like a pair of boots 😉 )
Spirit taught me to face my fears. In the face of death, I learned how to make it positive. Spirit has healed me so much more then I could have ever expected. It is TRULY a gift, just as sharing myself with you all is. I thank you for the wonderful opportunity to be honest with you all.
Stay Tuned. XO Jennie