Let’s start this story with how I got to go see the one and only Tony Robbins.
I had always wanted to go. So I saved up $10 dollars from every single reading I did until I saved up the money to go. I was so happy the day I purchased my ticket.
Three months passed. My anxiety was building around this experience so deeply, but I kept having these incredible dreams of going and getting so excited. Then the day was finally here. November 9th. I was alerted at 2:00am that my flight had gotten cancelled, and I was supposed to be at the airport in less than 3 hours.
I quickly got on the phone with United, and got rerouted. Lost all of my First class status. 🙁 BUT I was getting there. So on 2 hours of sleep, my incredible husband drove me to the airport and sent me on my way.
Finally, I had arrived. I met with a friend who was also attending the conference, and we were splitting a room. Ilana and I made our way to the taxi, hotel, whole foods, hotel and then we had to get to Registration.
All on 2 hours of sleep.
BUT we made it. We got in line, and hung out. The Tony Team was an hour late opening the doors, so we had witnessed some unhappy people — BUT when they opened the doors, holy shit. You could have never expected what you were walking into.
The music was double the loudest volume on your car. With every base drop pulsating through your heart. You could LITERALLY feel every beat. The Tony Crew was yelling in your face at the top of their lungs, and high fiving, hugging, at every opportunity they had. One guy was doing laps around the arena in pure excitement. I questioned what the hell I got myself into. I went into this with an open mind, but fuck! I’m a Medium, I feel everyone’s energy, this is a LOT of people, and I do NOT know how the heck I’m going to handle this level of intensity.
Ilana and I were literally pushed through registration so fast we got separated in the blink of an eye. When we met back up, both us looked like a deer in the headlights with windblown hair. Mind=blown. We went back to the hotel to get some sleep before our (what we thought would be) 14 hour day. Turns out it was 20, but hey, there’s not time like Tony Time!
The next day, we woke up, still a bit groggy, but ready to see the man, the myth, the legend himself TONY ROBBINS. We made our way to the arena at 8:00am, Doors opened at 11:00am. Wouldn’t you know, there was a massive line already outside. We did our best, and then the opened the venue doors. We found a section and waited. It was cool talking to others, but I was ready to get in and sit down. I was having so much vertigo with all the energy!
When the section doors finally opened, people RAN. Literally. We ended up getting spectacular seats in the very front! (of the nosebleed section, but it’s still the front). We all sat down and watched people play musical chairs trying to find the “right” spot. (by day 4, no one gave a f*ck).
I was shocked at literally how cold Tony kept the arena, all that I had seen said it would be freezing, but 50 degrees freezing? Walking on fire will be necessary after 12 hours in this, LOL! At 1:10pm, the music starts going NUTS. Think like EDM concert level 10. These dancers start getting up on stage, followed by cheerleaders, and they let the energy build up and go absolutely nuts… until that moment…. HERE’S TONY.
I don’t think in my entire life, I’ve ever felt energy as intense as that. EVERYONE went freaking NUTS. After about 10 minutes of hugs, dancing, and going all out crazy we began the unleashing process. He started off with “I am not here to fix you, because you are not broken. You may think you are, but you’re not. I am not your guru.” He began to tell us story after story of motivation, and just awesomeness. I was so stoked about his energy and passion from the moment he walked on stage. After about 15 minutes of sitting, he said OK, everyone UP! It’s time to celebrate. The music went crazy with Animals – Martin Garrix, and again everyone was jumping up and down like a crazy person. Then the most shocking thing happened, he said ok, get in a group of three. Pick someone to be in the middle. MASSAGE THEM, they are a sports trainer about to run a marathon. We had to massage strangers. Yes, guys, girls, no matter who you were next to you had to do it.
For those of you who know me well and about my past – know that I also had an immediate panic attack. No way in HELL was I letting a guy touch me, or anyone for that matter. But guess who conquered that fear? This girl. By day four we’d probably done, what 100 rounds of massaging strangers? I wouldn’t say I’m comfortable with it, but I trusted God’s plan for me. Fear #1, conquered. And I wasn’t hurt.
Hug 10 strangers, 10 high fives and sit down. This became an every hour, every day occurrence. Little did I know then, this would not be the first MAJOR fear I’d conquer. We continued on that night, and for the sake of you maybe attending one of Tony’s events, I’ll keep the exercises to myself only because they are so magical in person, you need to experience but I can tell you by 8:00pm (12 hours in) I was NOT tired, I had already cried 10 times, hugged 50 strangers, massaged people, and felt alive for the first time in a long time. Living in fear is not an alive state – that’s for damn sure. (I think I was beginning to like the cold, too).
At 9:00pm, Tony announced that he was having a surprise guest join us. The lights got pitch dark and the one and freaking only Mr. 305 walked on stage. Now, I’ve taught Zumba for years, seeing Pitbull live is on my bucket list, and here we are getting our own personal concert. It was freaking incredible. I can’t even put it into words, so I won’t but just know Pitbull is everything and more that you’d think he would be. He’s also got a huge heart, incredible story, and is an inspiring man. I felt so lucky to be there.
THEN CAME THE FIRE.
Fuck. BY the Way if you notice I’m cursing a lot, you should meet Tony. The opening part of your journal you recieve says “THIS PROGRAM CONTAINS ADULT LANGUAGE.” No shit. It’s no different than how I am normally, but I didn’t have the guts to do it on my business page. Well, Fear #2 conquered.
He starts by talking to us about how we’re walking across the fire as a first step for us to conquer our fears. Ummm.. Yeah. I’d say walking across 2,000 degree coals would increase my fear level. BUT then he continued to talk about the worst thing that you’re thinking about, aka TRIPPING on the fire, or falling, or getting coals stuck between your toes. Well, FUCK. Not only did I not think about ANY of that, but I trip all the damn time over nothing, it’d be totally like me to trip over FIRE. My mind started going absolutely insane. What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck. Tony explained how we were going to get into a peak state, make your MOVE and say yes, keep our head high, walk direct and confident, and say our mantra (COOL MOSS), then celebrate at the end.
**Let me explain make your move – we had to pick a move that would be our empowerment move. Whenever we need to do something challenging or change our state, we will make this move and scream YES! I’m sure we did this 400 times this weekend, and it is deeply ingrained in our neurobiology now. Even while typing “Make Your Move” I had to do it and shout YES! It will get you through ANYTHING. Promise.**
After about 2 hours of prepping, celebrating, getting high on life and fear, we were ready. We were escorted outside to the parking lot where a tribal drum was playing this incredible beat as we all were chanting yes, YES, YES! Over and over. It was beautiful and terrifying at the exact same time. I started to pray to God, and told him how scared I was, but if he could get me through this, I’d really appreciate it. Ilana and I made it to a lane….. and about two seconds later we look over at this giant man.. WAIT. IT’S TONY. Yeah, this is the closest we got to him, but damn, he’s massive. He started off this firewalk, his crew began yelling in our face YES! One guy yelled at me right before it was my turn to go, and this is how it went –
It’s your time, GO!
Me: “FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK, wait, it’s over?! HOLY SHIT!”
You read this right, I screamed the F word while walking on fire and didn’t feel a damn thing. It was the most empowering moment I’ve felt in forever. I watched Ilana come over the finish line, she looked like she was 100% in Spirit. We gathered our belongings and ended the night at 1:17am. We walked back to the hotel because we were on such a flippin high, we couldn’t stop unleashing that beautiful, magical power. YES! We got back to the hotel around 2:00am, and went to bed around 3:00am. And there’s our first 20 hour day, getting up in 4 hours to get back to the arena. But we couldn’t freaking WAIT.
6:00am rolls around, same process, got to the arena, got seat, we started promptly at 8:30am. Music starts, dancers, start.. and this short, african american guy comes out screaming. That’s not Tony?
No, it wasn’t his name is Joseph McClendon, and he’s a freaking badASS <- get the pun?
He walked out on stage, and said “I know you’re expecting some massive, tall, alien white guy, but here I am short, black and loud.” HA. He sure knows how to break the ice. He continued to tell us to “SHUT UP”, very loudly and told us about his legacy is “Asstitude” and we’d be “Shaking that ass” all day. Yes, this is real. He left me with more laughs than I have laughed in years, I laughed so hard my abs hurt for days. Joseph did a wonderful job of pushing us emotionally, physically, and mentally all while keeping us entertained. From now until forever I will always walk through a doorway with my arms up in the air saying, “I’ve arrived bitches!” along with giving MYSELF high fives and pats on the back.
To be quite honest, the next 2 days went very similarly, and like I said above – I’ll spare the exercises incase you go. But in summary, I have never EVER pushed myself that hard, long, or been willing to face myself and what I am dealing with in that way. Tony and Joseph taught us how to change our state instantly, how to maintain a peak and high energy state, to face our fears, to say bluntly what we feel, and to own ourselves because “I FREAKING ROCK” (say it to yourself).
I overcame some serious obstacles by going to this event – I am a Medium, Psychic, Empath, you name it I am it. But I also had to deal with some past trauma that scared the shit out of me. And I’m pretty proud of myself and Ilana.
But I wasn’t perfect.
I’ve had vertigo for the past 3 months (August). I’ve also had extreme shoulder pain, and some weird memory issues. I thought it was because of some of the Mediumship work I’m doing. BUT Day three rolled around and Tony took the stage.
He began to explain to us he shattered his rotator cuff and is suffering from mercury poisoning (which causes memory loss and fatigue). He also told us about the brain tumor he has had for years and has done nothing with. (Maureen, Leigh Ellen, Dad remember I told you about how I thought I had a brain tumor? Yeah.)
I’d been channeling Tony for the past 3 months trying to get “ready” for this event.
Today, all those symptoms are gone. I still feel like I want to read him, because his people definitely have messages for him. But it was a great lesson for me that I can channel anyone and anything with it completely passing my conscious mind. A true practice in awareness.
This was one of the BEST experiences of my life. I’ve never felt so much beautiful, inspiring energy all in one room. Everyone was soo awesome and I am a better human being going through this experience. I learned SO MUCH. Omg. I am so excited for what’s next. 🙂 If you have an opportunity to go to a UPW, go. P.S. there’s one in LA in March. Go. Seriously. GO.